Now through this post I would try to figure out why I had been keeping quiet all this while, now that I actually have nothing to do.
Let me start with the initial days of the supposed 'vacation' period. This 'vacation' (no inverted commas hereafter as they weren't as substantial as I had wanted them to be) was not merely a summer vacation but one that had been welcomed long before it had actually arrived ... it was after all, the end to my school life. Now as per the academic traditions here which don't spare you even a single holiday without a homework, I had, like many of fellow classmates across the country, some aspirations to fulfill, some goals to reach, and so I replaced the books on the table with my brains and started to mug up things as vehemently as possible ( studying would have been a better term, but I shall justify why I use 'mugging' ).
Starting off with the State Common Entrance Test for engineering early April , I found myself getting unexpectedly better on my birthday that co-hosted the IIT JEE exam. I would have talked about the other exams as well but pardon my tendency to speak only of good things. Hence I stop. Were the goals achieved ? Later please.
So the whole of month of April had to pass in these tedious ordeals. Just when I thought May would be better, I had my board exam results. Psst ! They were awful. Well actually, you expect a lot when you work hard on something. The same was with me. The results rendered me numb for a few days and so did the results of the various entrance exams ... I turned out to be a complete failure when it mattered the most. Nobody told me that but you expect things from yourself too at times. The aspirations unaccomplished. Done with May.
June, has by far been the best in the past three-four months ! Not because I conceded any victory but because I didn't concede any failure either. Things look pretty well in shape right now, no signs of any further damage.
Diverting from the topic of discussion hasn't always been entertaining to me but because I hadn't planned on writing this one, I guess things turned out to be bad and utterly boring. Everybody loves a heroic story, whereas only few relish upon miseries. So what was it that actually kept me away, I wondered and found out that there were quite a few factors. Studying for the boards and entrance exams is so exhausting on the mind that you lose the creativity required to carry on with the task of writing. Then, I chanced upon to give myself a facebook account and that has also been occupying my mind to some extent. The status update feature serves the purpose of a micro blog and you get more followers so complacency was bound to take its toll. Doing nothing, was I guess the most important thing done during this tenure.
On an ending note ... I hope to be back to blogging as soon as possible. The vacationing period would end soon and I'll be busy again but I guess I am better with the blog while busy. So let's see how it turns out to be.
